A long way to go

It's ten days since I started this weight loss journey. I can only claim a three pound loss, because up until a few days ago, I didn't have a scale! 221.8 pounds this morning.

I have often wondered why I couldn't lose weight. I wanted to be slim again, or so I told myself. I knew what I had to do but it seemed impossible to do it.

Until I realized I actually wanted to be fat, I was not able to stick to any diet or weight loss plan. Sounds crazy, I know, but I really think the most important question any person who wants to lose weight can ask themselves is "Why do I want to be fat?"

I asked myself that question, and the answer that slipped through my sub-conscious was "I am protecting myself from being found attractive by other men apart from my husband. I am protecting myself from confronting an old friend. I am rebelling against myself!"

Interesting or not, an amazing change took place in my will power and determination as soon as I answered those questions. I also took a woman's perogative and changed my mind!

I don't want to be fat anymore! I want to be a size ten again and I will be! It will be a slow process but a rewarding and enjoyable journey.

Jan